The Castle of Longing - Chapter 6
The
station was packed as Terza turned into the ticket office, she could not believe
it, twenty minutes to seven, and there were horrendous queues at the windows.
She quickly joined the shortest one and put her narrow case down by her side.
It was Friday, she thought, everybody was going away for the weekend, how could
they travel so early! How could they do this to her! There was twenty minutes
to go before the train departed and as she shut out the incredible noise from
her mind she remembered how when she had woken up that morning the sound of bird
song from outside her window had made her think of her youth and living out in
the country. There was a clear blue sky and the day promised to be a warm one.
She recalled summer meadows and soft mountain streams, how she had loved living
in the country!
The queue moved forward slowly, her purse was at the ready and there was a book
under her arm. She was wearing the black dress which she had hung on her wardrobe
door the previous evening in readiness, and looked rather demure as the soft material
followed the slender line of her body, with only a slight indent at the waist
to hint that there was any shape to her figure at all. Her dark hair
was combed and swept back, and held in place with a deep pink head-band. She glanced
down at her dress and gave herself a last minute inspection, as if she had not
checked herself enough before leaving for the station, the only thing that crossed
her mind was whether she should wear a slip, and whilst it was cool enough now,
it would probably be too warm later - she would remove it. The inspection complete
the queue moved forward a little more, it was ten to seven and she stood there
hoping that the three people in front of her would not take too long, it wouldn't
take much to make her miss her train. In the next three minutes nobody seemed
to move. Things were getting just a little tight now. Another minute
ticked away and she moved forward, and then moved forward again. At last she was
at the ticket window and she ordered her ticket, there was four minutes to go
as she hurried from the ticket office, which led straight out onto the platform.
She quickly checked the huge departure board above and in front of her. Platform
six - she passed through the platform barrier with a minute to spare, and then
quickly marched along the platform as attendants began closing the doors. She
hopped into the nearest carriage and began walking towards the front of the train,
she passed an open carriage and then through the restaurant car. The
next two carriages had compartments which she preferred, and half way along the
second one she found an empty compartment, lugged the door open, which was a little
stiff, half closed it again and looked around at the seats. She then heaved her
case above one of the window seats and then looked around again, sitting down
on the seat facing the engine. She put her purse beside her and her
book on the small shelf in front of her just under the large window. As she sat
there others passed the compartment, only occasionally looking in her direction.
It was three minutes after seven and there was no movement, noises could be heard
outside from the station staff, but the voices were too garbled for her to hear
anything properly. An older couple looked into the compartment and then
opened the door, Terza smiled as they came in and they smiled back, wishing her
good morning as they did so. She returned the courtesy, and noticed that they
were quite well dressed, he in a suit, which was of an old-fashioned dark-grey
flannel colour coupled with a white shirt - one collar was not turned down properly
- and a striking red tie. The woman wore a bright floral dress with a white background
and a thick, brown cardigan which did not match the apparent newness of the dress.
Both were rather on the large side, she more than him, but a walking stick distinguished
the gentleman who, within his facial features contained all the world's sadness,
and only a little of its wisdom. This is as much as Terza took in as
she sat there, and then glanced out of the window. The minutes passed and a train
which she had eyed earlier a couple of platforms away now slowly moved out, revealing
a completely empty platform. It was ten past seven as she glanced at her
watch, and a shout and further slamming of doors indicated that the train was
almost ready to go. With a sigh of relief on her breath, the train jerked forward,
and at last she was on her way. A guard entered the compartment as Terza
turned around, he then spoke briefly to the older couple, something about their
luggage being in the luggage-rack at the end of the carriage. "Will
it be safe?" asked the woman, and the guard assured her that it would.
The guard then proceeded to tell the couple that they were to ask for help
when they arrived at their destination, and as they thanked him he touched his
cap in acknowledgement. The couple were seated together by the door, he was in
the corner. He watched the guard walking away, and then he half turned, looked
at Terza, and smiled again.
Leaving the hustle of the station far behind, the spires and the tall buildings
of the city appeared resplendent in Terza's eyes, and the cathedral bloomed triumphant
above the business district as the train continued now to wind and turn across
various tracks which seemed to sprawl in all directions, the wheels beneath clacking
heavily as a dozen points were crossed, and the train began to take the form of
a silvery snake as it moved slowly, but gracefully forward.
Terza made herself more comfortable as she rested her hands in her lap and crossed
her legs which stretched out before her, only partly visible below the long skirt
of her dress. She felt satisfied with herself now that she was on the train, and
she allowed her clogged up mind to unwind a little for the first time since she
awoke. There had been so much to think of, but now she was on her way.
At that moment she was startled by the door of the compartment being opened again
and on turning her head a man indicated whether the window seat opposite her was
taken. "No, it's not taken," she said, as a smile lit up his
face and he began to make his way to the seat. He had a smallish case
which he threw up onto the rack, and then made himself comfortable opposite her
as she curved her legs inwards a little to make more room. "A nice
day!" he beamed, as Terza smiled and then carried on looking out of the window.
She could feel his face study hers, but she pretended not to notice.
His countenance had been polite though and as she stared out of the window a dozen
thoughts came to mind as the outer limits of the city came into view; towering
apartment blocks housing hundreds of families, all waking up together. They took
on an ominous glow as the sun caught them from behind, silhouetting them against
the stark blue sky. The train began to pick up speed now as it rattled
and shuddered over another set of points. Terza could see the reflection of the
man opposite in the window, he was glancing out too, but occasionally his eyes
turned to her. It was at this point she did not know what to do, his glance seemed
one of part recognition, but she could not think where she might have seen him
before. She felt uncomfortable for a moment, he had the advantage over her, what
could she do without staring straight at him? As the sun was beginning
to stream through the window she had an idea, if she put her sunglasses on, she
could hide behind them whilst she stared at him surreptitiously. She fumbled in
her purse for her sunglasses, and finding them, she raised them to her cheeks
and after another stare out of the window she placed them over her eyes. She continued
to look out for a moment so as not to make things too obvious, but was now confident
that the man could not see in which direction her eyes stared. She slowly turned
her head inwards and stopped for a moment. Yes, he was staring straight at her,
but his eyes then turned outwards again. Had he be looking at her all that time,
or was it all in her imagination? She looked at him a little longer
and then looked out of the window again. The city was now far behind,
and the carriage rocked and swayed as she watched the meadows sweep past. Sunlight
caught the hills and valleys and gave them sinister shapes and shadows, and a
fine bluish mist rose from the fields, which glistened from early morning dew.
She stared aimlessly for a while as the sunlight warmed her brow and encouraged
her to daydream a little. Terza now glanced casually at the man opposite
again, he seemed a little older than her. Well dressed, he wore a grey pin-striped
suit, a businessman she thought. His complexion seemed at first rather plain,
but his eyes appeared immediately attractive, though she could not see their colour
because of her dark glasses, but they struck her as kind eyes, reflective eyes.
His eyebrows joined at the middle, and narrow cheek bones gave way to the impression
that he had rather a long face, with a deep chin to match. She turned towards
the window, removed her sunglasses for a moment, and held them thoughtfully in
her hand. She noticed that his eyes were of a light blue colour with a fine tinge
of hazel around the edges. She then looked away quickly for fear of being found
out. When she looked back again he was looking straight at her, and
without any further expression in her face to give her away, she replaced the
glasses on her nose. The businessman then lifted his attaché
case onto his lap and Terza heard the twin locks flick open at his touch. He put
the case on the seat beside him, next to the older couple in the corner who seemed
indifferent, and began to thumb through a pile of papers which he had taken out
of the case and placed on his lap. The old couple were chatting among
themselves and Terza's mind drifted outside as the train passed an orchard with
its trees all neatly arranged in rows. The next town could not be far off, she
thought, as she felt the train begin to slow. They crossed a river and as Terza
looked down she could see a beach along a riverbank. She knew the place well.
It was a place that she had been many a time to swim. She had noticed that the
man had also looked down as they crossed the bridge, which straddled the river
diagonally, and guessed maybe that he had been there also. It was a
beautiful area, and for Terza it brought back many fond memories. She imagined
that later it would be swarming with bathers, just as it was when she had last
swam there. Although the beach was narrow, it stretched for some one and half
kilometres up-river until it reached a small attractive waterfall. No
sooner had these thoughts passed through her mind when the train braked suddenly.
The businessman's papers went flying everywhere, and Terza's book, which had been
on the side-shelf, flew dishevelled into her lap. The train continued to brake,
and a grating sound seemed to make the whole carriage shudder. "What's
happening?" said the man as he arched his back and began to rise from his
seat, and looked at Terza mystifyingly. Terza was already on her feet
and about to look out of the vent at the top of the window. "But
your papers!" said Terza, as she bent down in an endeavour to help the man
with his papers. He made some polite gesture that it did not matter, and made
a joke about the insignificance of the papers. With another jerk the train came
to a halt, but then the unbelievable happened. To Terza's utter embarrassment
she was thrown helplessly on top of the man. The couple in the corner, who
had been watching this with some amusement, did not move at all. Perhaps they
were bolted to their seats? The couple looked at each other and then looked at
Terza. "I'm sorry," said Terza, as she began to push herself
up with her hands. "It's okay," said the man, "....it's
okay, just put your hand there and push yourself up." She did this
and began to push herself up. What a picture she must have looked she thought
to herself, as her legs had at first splayed, and now her dress was all up around
her knees. The man recovered his composure quicker and helped Terza back on her
feet. "Are you hurt?" he asked, his face full of embarrassment
for the position they found themselves in, and then quipped, "It's not often
that women throw themselves at me like that!" Terza looked straight
into his eyes, but could not resist a cautious smile at the man's inference, and
she checked herself before opening her mouth and offering a comment for his well-timed
remark. She bent over and brushed her dress down quickly with her hands.
"Here, let me help you," he said, as he too brushed her dress lightly
of some of the dust which it had picked up from the dirty floor. "Let
me take off my glasses," said Terza, and she placed them on the seat as she
twisted and turned, brushing the rest of the dust from her black dress. She straightened
up, and at once saw the concern in the man's eyes. These were the kind eyes that
she had earlier regarded with affection. For a moment she forgot where
she was, and quite unintentionally allowed him to show his concern more than she
would normally have done, was it possible that she was deliberately acting more
distressed than she really was? How could she be so cruel to such a kind and unassuming
person? But what a strange sensation came over her at that moment! Meanwhile,
the old man who was sat in the corner got up with the aid of his walking stick
and opened the compartment door, the commotion heard in the corridor wafted into
the compartment. "Why have we stopped?" she said, still slightly
dazed. "I don't know," said the man who had helped her, but
his voice was reassuring, and he looked out of the vent briefly and then turned
inwards again. Terza, still standing, steadied herself and then continued
to look at the man pensively, and with anticipation. Just then a guard made
his way along the corridor, checking that everyone was okay and reassuring passengers
that the train would be moving off again soon. No explanation was given, and as
Terza began to return to her seat the train rocked as another train passed them
at full speed. "A red light, I presume," said the man, without
much conviction, and shrugging his shoulders at the same time. The older
gentleman returned to his seat and muttered some words to his wife.
Terza got up to look out of the vent when some noise outside caught her attention,
little realizing that her slim, dark form was of some interest to the businessman.
Terza was not aware of this as she tried to see what was happening, but to no
avail. The train slowly arched forward and Terza turned inwards, still
a little unsteady on her feet. "Please...." said the businessman,
indicating that she should take her seat for safety. "You are so
kind," said Terza, with lady-like exuberance, to which the man appeared unaccustomed.
The man picked up her dishevelled book, glanced at the cover, smiled, and handed
it back to her, with her sunglasses. "Thank-you," she said,
as she placed both on the side. "Do you often read such heavy books?"
he inquired, as his eyes half glanced at a copy of Kafka's 'The Castle'.
"No, not often," she said wryly, as she expected to be drawn into
a conversation about the book, which she did not really want to discuss. The reply
was accepted and Terza felt a little relieved at this. "Well, my
name is Frantisek Tauberg, but most people call me Franti." He stretched
out his hand to shake hers. Terza paused momentarily, however, his calm countenance
reassured her and she shook his hand shyly. "Terza," she said
in a half whisper. "Terza?" he repeated, "That's unusual,
is it Bohemian?" "I don't know," said Terza, smiling
reservedly. How little Terza knew that this was the same man who had
been struck by her beauty when she had visited the National Gallery, it was his
woman in black, and how little she knew of his deep attraction for her. Of course,
Franti could hardly believe that he had now introduced himself to her, and that
he now knew her name. How close he had been to her, how he had touched her, and
how he treasured the moment he had held her in his arms as he helped her to her
feet! Terza,
for her part, looked at him quizzically as a number of thoughts crossed her mind.
He mystified her, yet at the same time she was intrigued by him, there was something
about his polite manner which made him seem unusually attractive. "Where
are you going?" continued Franti, in a light-hearted vein. "To
Geneva," said Terza without expounding. "Me too," said
Franti, "I have business there." He glanced briefly at his papers as
he said this. Terza waited for further explanation, unfairly perhaps,
as she had not been forthcoming in her own conversation. Anticipating this, Franti
continued. "I am a banker, I have business interests there...."
"Oh," came the reply, as Terza nodded approval of his answer
with her eyes, but after this the sudden thought that she had been very rude troubled
her. Realizing this, Franti reassured her that she had not sought too much of
their fragile acquaintance. "You have set my mind at rest,"
said Terza, trying to hide her embarrassment and to compensate, Terza intimated
to Franti the events of the last two days. "I am so sorry to hear
your father is not well," said Franti, "my journey also has some family
interest...." and with this he went no further than to say that both business
and pleasure was often the reason he made this particular journey. It was
now five past eight and the train had no sooner gained some speed again when it
began to slow down. Terza glanced out of the window as the train neared the outskirts
of a small city. They pulled into the station five minutes later. "Only
a short stop here," said the seasoned Franti. Terza nodded again
as she continued to look out of the window at passengers as they disembarked.
She glanced around at the placards on the platform, and she watched people as
they passed the window. Everyone had a purpose to what they did, she thought,
as she stared into their faces. She looked impatiently at her watch, although
only a minute had passed. Franti got up and looked out of the window, his body
towered over hers as she looked up. The door to the compartment was suddenly opened
and a uniformed officer looked around the compartment.
"Passports!" he said, as he turned to the old couple in the corner.
Franti put his hand in his inside pocket, whilst Terza fumbled in her
purse. The border guard did not seem to take any interest in the passports once
he had opened them and just stared blankly. Terza handed him her passport,
he looked quickly and then stared straight into her eyes. Perhaps this was some
sort of game she thought, the object being to guess what was on the guard's mind.
She giggled to herself, but did not show any emotion as the passport was handed
back to her. She came to a decision about what was on the guard's mind: stewed
apple. Yes, stewed apple, he was thinking about lunch. Who on earth fancied stewed
apple this early in the morning, she thought! He did obviously. The
guard turned and glanced at Terza quickly, before leaving the compartment with
a thud as the door was slammed. The old couple smiled, Franti raised his eyebrows,
and Terza just sat there with her passport in her hand. Still standing,
Franti looked at Terza and smiled. How nice she looked as she sat there he thought,
with her pink head-band and her black dress, she looked just the same as she had
looked on the first day he saw her. "Did you see what was on that
guards mind?" said Terza, as she looked at Franti. Yes, he did have wonderful
eyes she decided as she studied him with interest. Then she told him
about the games that she played with her mind sometimes, to which Franti said
he often did the same. Terza thought he was just saying this to appear agreeable
to her, knowing very little of what was on Franti's mind. Franti could still not
believe that he was so close to the woman who had been on his mind constantly
since he first saw her, and he cast his thoughts back to the moment he set eyes
on her beautiful face, and how he had dreamed about her ever since.
Terza realized he was thinking about her as his eyes suddenly looked out of the
window when she looked up. She didn't know what to do for a moment. Words came
to her and she suddenly had little comprehension of what she was saying.
"Are you playing that game with me now?" Her voice seemed somehow distant
and there was an ocean of calm in the way Franti responded. She felt awkward for
a moment as her meagre words hung in the air like mist in the early morning.
Franti smiled. "I suppose I was," he said smiling, and
he put his hands in his pockets as he turned around and looked philosophical for
a moment. His countenance then changed to one of more practical matters. "Would
you like a coffee," he said, as he looked at her warmly. "Yes,
that would be very nice, I'm parched!" Franti's face lit up as
she said this and Terza felt that a bridge of friendship had grown up between
them. She watched him as he left the compartment. She thought for a moment about
what she had said to him, and she could feel herself being drawn closer to him,
not that this was a bad thing. He was not unattractive, and he had such an exquisite
nature that Terza thought of herself as wholly inadequate, unable to match his
kindness. She admitted to herself that she was fascinated by him, but
how could she deal with her own feelings? She had made such a fool of herself
earlier when the train had jerked to a halt, and he had teased her about it. How
could he take her seriously after she had flung herself on top of him, it was
so embarrassing! Had she really thrown herself at him? How could he joke about
such a thing? Her body went limp at the thought of what had come to pass. She
then thought about how silly a situation it had been. As she looked
out of the window she began to feel she was reading too much into the situation,
after all, he gave no outward sign that he was embarrassed by the situation, or
was she completely lost in her own imagination and confused by events which seemed
so hugely simple that they did not bear consideration? She composed herself enough
to feel more relaxed for Franti's return. Her thoughts quickly dissolved
when he appeared at the door carrying two coffees, an assortment of small milk
cartons and a small packet of biscuits on a plastic tray. His gesture seemed to
be a kind of apology for their little accident earlier as he looked kindly upon
her. What could she do next? But her eyes lit up with delight as she moved her
book off the side-shelf to make room for the coffee and biscuits, all neatly arranged
on the tray. Franti placed one of the coffees near her. "Thanks,"
she said as she smiled her appreciation, Franti just looked at her, a little more
pleased with himself. Her thoughts were miles away when he spoke.
"You know, this is a very fine journey!" Franti's eyes spoke volumes
as his words softly floated in her direction, "The countryside ahead is so
beautiful that I often think I would like to live in Switzerland."
What Franti had said was so obvious a reference to what she had said about her
father living in Geneva that Terza felt gratified and subdued at the same time.
He was trying to side with her to make her feel better. Of course, she appreciated
this. Terza kept quiet for awhile but continued to stare at him. She was thinking
beyond any words she wanted to say. "But there are many beautiful
places in the world." Terza was trying to draw attention away from herself,
she didn't like being so obviously the centre of attention. "And
what do you call a beautiful place?" said Franti, unapologetically.
Terza again thought about Franti's words, she sipped her coffee, and looked
at him again. "The most beautiful place is the one you always dream
about, sometimes it is real, sometimes it is not, but Geneva is a very beautiful
place. I think it depends on experiences, we have different reasons for our preferences,
don't you think?" "I agree with you, but what are your experiences?
What of Switzerland? What of Geneva?" Terza continued drinking her coffee.
"I can see you are concerned for your father, I'm sorry, I am being too presumptuous...."
continued Franti, feeling ashamed of himself. Franti reflected for a
moment and waited for Terza to speak, but she remained motionless. After a pause
Franti interceded that there were many fine doctors in Geneva, and that her father
would be well looked after. Terza nodded in agreement, but could not stop her
thoughts drifting away from the conversation. It was not long before she recovered
and she looked at Franti and the kindness in his eyes. "Of course,
you are right, I know you are right," said Terza. Terza cheered
up a little, and she attributed this to Franti. He offered her a biscuit and she
took one and held it to her mouth. She paused, looking at Franti. His eyes were
fixed on her. Why was he looking at her like this, she thought, and smiled at
him. She could not contain her inquisitiveness, and her face flushed as she spoke
more boldly. "Why do you look at me so?" Her words
were like passing wisps of clouds on a clear summer's day. "It's
nothing," said Franti softly, "I did not mean to stare, it's just that
a sudden darkness passed over you just now and I could not help thinking that
I had said too much to you." Terza felt a little more relaxed.
"No, it is I who have said too much....." Terza continued.
Her cheeks returned to their normal colour, but Terza's emotions had
been stirred, and when she looked at Franti she could see a gentle longing in
his eyes that she had not noticed before. She did not know what to do. She could
see into his heart. She finished her coffee at the same time as he did and they
looked at each other almost with shyness, she felt guilty about what was on her
mind and tried to hide her feelings in a mask of aloofness, but she could not
hide such feelings, even if she wanted to. She was lost in a dream of self discovery,
but how could she know her true feelings when all around her the world seemed
so full of things she could not know, and a mysterious feeling of well being made
her shimmer at the thought that this stranger could demand so much of her attention?
"Would you like something else to eat?" said Franti, holding
out the small packet of biscuits. "No, it's okay, I'm fine now,"
said Terza, as her words seemed to echo in her mind. "I'll return
the tray then," said Franti as he picked up the cups and made for the door.
Terza watched as he disappeared from view and felt momentarily relieved
to be alone with her thoughts. She picked up her book and thumbed through it quickly,
but she knew she could not concentrate, all she could think about was Franti.
He intrigued her, yet at the same time there was something about him which seemed
wildly romantic, as if in her heart she really believed that there was something
beyond the ordinary feeling of affection for someone who could be so kind, yet
remain composed. She could not face her own feelings, she did not want to believe
them, but how could she stop thinking about the way he had looked at her?
She began to fear his return, and she tried to think of ways to avoid eye
contact, but how could she come to terms with her feelings? She would excuse herself,
she would go to the bathroom and hide for a moment, she would try and pull herself
together. She drew her purse closer to her and then looked fixedly inside, she
rearranged a couple of items and then closed it up again. Should she go now and
avoid some embarrassment? She could not concentrate on what she was doing, she
was going to pieces for no reason at all! She got up, and to her surprise
Franti appeared at the door. She was speechless for a moment. "Oh!"
she said, her face colouring once more, "I was just....."
But it was too late, her words foundered and became nothing, and she stood there
not knowing what to do. "That's okay," said Franti, "I'll
see you in a moment," he said cheerfully. With this Terza brushed
by him slowly, her eyes turned away from his. She walked down the corridor and
quickly shut herself away. She stared at herself in the mirror for a few minutes
and began to feel better. She fumbled in her purse for her make-up bag, and after
a quick refreshing wash began to make herself up. She took off her hair-band and
brushed her hair, and then replaced it again carefully. When she had finished
she checked herself again, put some fresh perfume on, and then stared once more
in the mirror before returning. The train was pulling into another station
as she returned to her seat, and with refreshed excitement she distracted Franti
by showing interest in all that was going on around, but surely Franti could see
through her? She continued in this new vein, but noticed that he had been aware
of her fresh perfume as soon as she had walked into the compartment, but bravely
she looked at him and smiled, and then reached for her sunglasses to enshrine
herself in that mystery which had first fascinated him. He smiled back at her.
As she looked out of the window thoughts of the final part of the journey
now engrossed her and she pictured Kirsty waiting on the platform, a kiss, a hug
perhaps, and then she would be lost forever in an indifferent world. Franti
caught her attention for a moment and she looked away from the window, he indicated
that he was going to stretch his legs and Terza looked up and smiled, how sweet
it was that he had caught her attention, and now she could not think of anything
else but the way he had looked at her. She took off her sunglasses and
glanced at her book. Time seemed to be going quickly now, the green countryside
raced by as the train got closer and closer to its destination. When
Franti returned he did not enter the compartment straight away, but stayed outside
and looked out of the window vent. The wind caught his dark hair and she continued
to look at him, unable to resist a candid glance at his firm stature and fine
facial features. It was close to the Swiss border and now the sun began
to stream through the window, Terza got up and opened the vent more fully, the
train began to slow down as she returned to her seat, and Franti appeared in front
of her. "The Swiss border," he said, and sat down with a smile.
"Ah!" said Terza with a sigh of relief. "It's so warm!"
she said as she pretended to fan herself. "Yes, it's going to be
a scorcher," came the reply. In Franti's eyes Terza could see a
rare affection which was mixed with uncertainty, and she knew at once that she
was the cause of it, but did she want to resist her own feelings and pretend she
felt nothing for this person she had only just met? How strange it felt when he
looked at her, and how her heart jumped when he spoke to her! She hid behind her
sunglasses, but she could hardly stop thinking about him, what could she do to
suppress the way she felt, even if she had wanted to? By the time they
had crossed the Swiss border Terza and Franti had exchanged telephone numbers
and addresses and were busily chatting about their various impressions of Geneva,
Terza had learned much about the city that she did not know. In the past she had
not had time to explore the city and Franti very kindly offered to show her around,
but because of her limited stay there she had sadly to decline. Terza reassured
him that she appreciated his offer, but said to give her a call at home during
the week. Franti commented on the views which now opened up before them
from the train window, the lake was a beautiful clear blue colour, and Lausanne
an absolute picture in the midday sun. Terza had always wanted to holiday in Lausanne
and she mentioned this to Franti. "Perhaps one day you will,"
he replied, but added that he had only ever stopped there once. Terza
could see the distant mountains, and her mind was filled with renewed hopes about
the future, not least because of her conversations with Franti, who had been so
kind to her. He had such a way of expressing things, and her heart fluttered as
she thought about him and how they had literally been thrown together (she still
felt embarrassed about this). But, of course, it was also a source of amusement
deep down within her, and she wondered how such a man could feel anything for
someone who had made a complete fool of themselves. As the outskirts
of Geneva came into view Terza could feel a deep sense of anxiety, and thoughts
that had earlier caused little consternation now rose like a mountain stream within
her, she raised her sunglasses to her eyes once again in an endeavour to hide
her thoughts, but Franti could see that she was concerned. He did his best to
reassure her. "Franti, I'm okay, I'm really okay," she repeated.
Franti loved the way she said his name. Terza felt sorry for him as
she suppressed his concern, he was trying to be so helpful, she altered her gait
and said enthusiastically: "You will call me?" Terza could see that
he was very pleased to hear her plea. "Of course, I'll call you
as soon as I can," came the reply. Terza smiled and leaned her
head back briefly, brushing her hair back with her hand and re-adjusting the head-band.
At that moment the train pulled into the station, and an air of activity
immediately swept the carriage. The old couple in the corner came to life, they
had dropped off to sleep, and Franti helped Terza down with her case. She looked
out of the window frantically as she thought of Kirsty, the train was about ten
minutes late pulling in, but she could not see her.
Franti and Terza left the compartment together and moved slowly down the corridor,
the old couple went before them, and Franti helped them with their cases, which
had been stored in the luggage rack at the end of the corridor. He then returned
to assist Terza onto the platform. She had no sooner disembarked when she heard
Kirsty's voice call her from behind, she turned and screamed Kirsty's name, and
with open arms embraced like sisters. "Hey," shouted Terza,
"allow me to introduce Franti, he has been so kind to me."
"Well, how do you do," said Kirsty, looking at Terza askance, as if
to say, What have you been up to? Franti shook her hand rigorously and then apologized
for the fact that he had to dash. He turned to Terza, and as he shook her hand,
he looked deep into her face. Terza removed her dark glasses, smiled, and then
said good-bye. Franti looked at her for a moment longer, turned without further
word, and disappeared into the crowd. "Hey, let me take that,"
said Kirsty, bending down to help Terza with her case. "No, it's
fine, I can manage," said Terza. "We have so much to talk
about," said Kirsty, putting her arm around Terza's shoulder. "Yes,
tell me Kirsty, how is Papa?" "You'll see," said Kirsty,
"he's quite cheerful in himself, he says the nurses argue over which of them
will tuck him in at night." "Oh," said Terza laughingly,
"That's typical of the old rascal, the tests are not bothering him then?"
Kirsty stopped walking for a moment, "Well," she said, her
voice turning a little more serious, "Deep down, he is really worried, what
can I do?" A hundred thoughts entered Terza's mind, and she looked
into Kirsty's eyes searchingly. It had never crossed her mind that her father
could be seriously ill. Kirsty anticipated her concern and reassured her that
it was too early to tell whether anything was seriously wrong, moreover, she had
been assured that the tests were merely precautionary. The whole thing had started
off with a routine medical and doctors were optimistic about the results.
Terza relaxed again and the two carried on walking. Once outside the station
the hot sunshine was almost overpowering, and Terza's first thought was to change
out of her travelling clothes as soon as possible. Kirsty's car, a four-door Mercedes
coupé with the top down, was parked nearby in the Place de Cornavin, and
Terza threw her case in the rear. "Is it far?" asked Terza.
"No, only a couple of minutes." Terza had conjured
up all sorts of thoughts about the new apartment and so she was really looking
forward to seeing it. "This is a beautiful city," she said,
as they drove down Rue du Mont Blanc and across the bridge, the Jet d'Eau looking
absolutely superb as it rose majestically to the left. "I love
it here," said Kirsty, "so does your father." "I
can imagine that!" agreed Terza. The breeze blowing through their
hair felt refreshing as they drove past the English Gardens. "Nearly
there," said Kirsty as they turned down a side street on the right, leaving
the beautiful lake behind them. They then took a left turn and then turned again
into what seemed the back of a large house, there was enough parking space for
three cars. "Here we are," said Kirsty. Terza turned
to open the car door, whilst Kirsty got out to close a pair of iron gates behind
them. In front was a door leading to some stairs, the bottom floor seemed to comprise
a junk-room initially, though Terza could not see much further beyond.
"We do have a front door as well!" said Kirsty, when she saw Terza's
face. "Oh, I wasn't really thinking...." said Terza, as her
words became nothing and her thoughts seemed elsewhere. Kirsty guessed what was
on her mind. "Who's this guy Franti then?" said Kirsty, all
of a sudden, as they climbed the stairs.
Terza had her suitcase in her hand. "Only someone I met on the train, we
chatted that's all, he was sweet to me." Kirsty stopped and Terza
almost walked into her. "Just a sweet guy, huh?" Kirsty's
eyes took on an ominous gesture, and then she raised her eyebrows in disbelief.
"And what did you do to befriend him then? Couldn't you see he
was all over you? I know that look in a man's eyes? I've seen it before!"
"Oh Kirsty, can't you think of anything else?" "I
know that look, that's all, what happened to make him like you so much?"
"Oh Kirsty!" Terza said again, and laughed as if to herself,
"You're quite wrong." "Terza, you're in love, why can't
you look at me in the eye then!" Kirsty flapped her fair, almost
blonde shoulder length hair as she turned disbelievingly at Terza. She then continued
walking up the stairs, but her steps and motions were decidedly more bouncy. Terza
could not think whether to hide her face in embarrassment or utmost pleasure,
both turned her denial into a mockery. Her body shuddered with uncontrollable
laughter, and Kirsty had to stop and help her up the last few steps. The two women
looked at each other with laughter in their eyes, and Kirsty had to put her hand
around Terza's waist to steady her. © Robin
Wilkey 1997 |